Thread:HEIL JOPEDE/@comment-31500568-20170920001416/@comment-34834173-20170920005317

My parents both got work. I usually am left with my sis, homework, and video games. Whenever I get done, my sense of accomplishment tend to be erased by a round of battle station with toxic kids calling me trash, shit, etc. it has taken a toll on me recently. Back then when I first got depressed, I would think of joining the military as soon as I'm 18 so I can get shot and it wouldn't technically count as a suicide. But that was one of my thoughts before. I had some help and that somewhat helped me, but this event came a bit too much and hit me hard. Sometimes, enjoying outdoors helped, but I can't be outdoors 24/7. I'm pretty sure eventually I'll cheer up, but I pretty sure it'll take like another day or so. Regardless, it'll take a while. And I myself hope I don't commit suicide in the meantime. I already tried once.